A love test. A piercing novel about the anxieties and hopes of thirty-year-olds.
In an ordinary game at a friendly party—“I Never…?”—Zoya, a beginning screenwriter, says: “...didn’t take an HIV test.” Those words seem to trigger an invisible mechanism: while the hours of waiting for the test results stretch endlessly, Zoya builds a list in her head: Yan, Andrey, Vitalik. In her memory, separate episodes from novels surface—smiles, words, embraces. But now these memories sound different.
A book about how we search for love at thirty, hoping it will solve all problems—and realizing that it doesn’t. About magical thinking that steers us, about fear of a diagnosis and foolish myths surrounding it, about finding oneself and those rare people whose friendship remains real.
Paraphrasing a classic, our whole life is a series, and we are all the screenwriters in it.
Svetlana Pavlova is a writer and winner of Forbes’s annual “30 to 30” ranking. She is a graduate of the HSE Master’s program “Literary Mastery.” Her “not-too-thick novel” “Hunger” made it to the shortlist of the “Yasnaya Polyana” prize, and her new novel “Screenwriter” received the first “Lyceum” award for young prose writers and poets.