An autobiographical novel about youth, love, and madness. Irkutsk, the early 2000s. The main character tries to figure out who she is, torn between school, music, and her first truly adult experiences. Infatuations and friendship, nights filled with poems, fateful encounters, and passions that burn from the inside gradually lead her, step by step, to meeting her own inner “walls,” from which you can’t hide.
The city turns into a tangled corridor of memories, the cemetery becomes a space for confessions, and the voices of the departed become strange companions on the path to adulthood. This is an outspoken, painfully accurate story about the attempt to find meaning, about wounds and recovery, about freedom— for which you always have to pay far too much. Where is the line between inspiration and madness—and will a person dare to cross it?