“…In everything I thought, in everything I felt, there was a half-conscious, bashful foreboding of something new—unspeakably sweet, feminine…”
The novella “First Love” wins over with its sincerity, emotional tone, tenderness of heart, and lyrical feeling. It contains a fateful riddle of love—passionate, changeable, capricious, irresistibly compelling and at the same time destructive.
Turgenev never hid the autobiographical nature of this novella, where the prototypes of the main characters were the writer in youth, the object of his first love—the princess E. L. Shakhovskaya—and his father. The novella is steeped in “the secret charm of real memories of first love, young delight, and young sorrow.”
The writer’s father—Sergey Nikolaevich, a retired cuirassier colonel—was wonderfully handsome, but morally and intellectually insignificant. The son didn’t like to remember him and described him as “the great hunter before the Lord.” The marriage of this spendthrift to the not-so-young but very wealthy Varvara Petrovna Lutovina was purely a matter of calculation. It was not a happy marriage and did not restrain Sergey Nikolaevich. One of his many “pranks” is described in the novella “First Love”.